Walter and I have been thinking of ways we can honor our little one here on Earth.
The color teal reminds us of her. Butterflies do as well. Anything that flies really: dragonflies, doves, swallows... Also princesses and fairies, just like many other girls. Angelic little girl faces.
This reminded me of her, and now I carry it in my purse. The little tag by the girl says, "Here I am!". A little reminder that always tells me our little girl is here.
Firstly, we thought of a way we know best. :) I will be adding a baby teal butterfly next to my first tattoo of a large butterfly for my grandmother when she passed away. More on this later.
I carry this photo in my wallet until the next month or so, when I am able to get it.
Secondly, we decided to make a small time capsule for her so we can look back and remember her being here and so we can add to it. We also felt like we needed something to show her siblings when the time is right.
Thirdly, after speaking with my husband and a good friend, and praying, Walter and I decided to name our baby we will not meet until heaven. We had been thinking about what the 'right' was thing to do, and feel like this is it. We feel like the name was really given to myself at a time that naming her was not on my mind, but at a time I was really missing her. We named her Friday, January 7th on the one month anniversary of her death.
We thought the name was fitting, due to the anger we felt after our loss. It is because of God's grace that we were able to be angry, and come to Him when we were ready. It was because of His grace we were blessed with her at all. It is because of God's grace do we have hope for future pregnancies.
I am also hoping to get something of this sort. A piece of jewelry or a charm that I can always have with a butterfly and her name. Please let me know if you know a good jewelry store or Etsy seller that does this well.
In loving memory of Grace Wallheimer (2010). Mommy and Daddy love you!