God writes our story.
I am still learning to surrender the pen.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Be Careful What You Wish For...

Just yesterday I had three different conversations with people explaining my concerns that I have not had 'real' morning sickness yet. I think once you try so hard for a baby and have had miscarriages yourself, you start to panic when anything isn't 'textbook'. I knew it might still be early, but I didn't care. I was really, really nervous that I had only felt nauseous a couple of times, and had never vomited.
I've been telling God He could make this the worst pregnancy ever, and I'd still be happy. If anything, if I'd wake up and puke my guts out I would feel 'normal' and reassured that I am in fact, pregnant!

But nothing.

Until this morning.
I must have jinxed myself talking about it yesterday, because I woke up very nauseous this morning... I told my husband, "I may throw up!" with way too much excitement in my voice. But soon it was time to leave for work and I still hadn't had 'real' morning sickness.


Until about 5 minutes from work.
I swerved into the QT nearby and briskly went to the bathroom. All I had to do was see the toilet and I finally had 'real morning sickness'! I cleaned myself up and just before I could complain or celebrate, I had 'real morning sickness' again. And again. And again.

I was 15 minutes late for work, but she knew why as soon as she saw my face. Haha. She sent me home after an hour.

My mom told me to 'be careful what you wish for' and we both laughed. But really, even though throwing up sucks it was my wish. Strange how your perspective can change due to past experiences. If I wake up and throw up every day for the next 6 weeks... well that's alright with me.

I'm just asking for healthy babies.